things somehow did get better.
and im really happy.

the past few days i was emo at nite and we toked over it.
i broke down in tears whn i realise tat i've hurt him whn i could not trust him.
it has been really long since i really cried. and this was a good thing indeed.
it frees me alot from the past and the pain i had.

we had a good time out today and had lots of laughters and fun.
it was sth i really wanted. sth tat ive wished for between me and my partner.
i hope it goes on this way.
its really so wonderful to be having him arnd in my life.
its just so amazing how he can make me smile all day without having any other worries.
whn we held our hands, i felt the world was ours.
and whn our eyes met, i could feel sth so special in his eyes.
its the way he make me smile, the way he is from top to toe, inside to outside, that makes me so melted by him.
aft telling him abt my bad past, abt my family, it makes me feel relieved too.
at least i hv a load off my shoulders.
all i hope is tat he wont be like another zhi wei.
and i dun wanna treat him like zhi wei, cuz this is sth i really wan to work on. sth tat i dun wish to lose. sth i cant bear to let go.
i love holding his hands, i love hugging him, i love kissing him. i enjoy every moment of time that i spend with him. i just simply love him!

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